Life of Kyle Prohaska

Do I really know what’s coming my way?  Nah.  Does it scare me a little?  Sure.  Am I excited though?  You bet!  I’m really not prepared I think for what the rest of this year could bring, and that does throw me a bit off every time I think about it.  I don’t know why I just have this feeling like something big is on its way, not sure why I feel that.  Yes STANDING FIRM is coming out and yes there have been some great things happening regarding that, but somehow I feel that isn’t the only thing.  It’s a weird feeling to have every day as new opportunities, emails, phone calls, etc. come.

I saw STANDING FIRM landed at #7 on ChristianCinema.com today under Best Sellers.  That’s pretty incredible to be considering the film is 2 weeks from release and as far as I know, not many know about it. (lol)  I got rid of another Church Screening, with a lot of them pending so I look forward to making some phone calls tomorrow to see who’s not sure

I went with Denise to The Chapel tonight to go to our E-Group Leader Training Meeting.  I’m starting this next Vintage (the college ministry there) as an E-Group leader which means I’ll be leading a small group of guys in discussion and such after the message on tuesday nights.  This means a lot more responsibility on my part while I’m there, more accountability, and a ton of things I’ll need to work on if I hope to be effective.  I’m very nervous to do this but excited as well.  It’s going to take some hard work on my part, and also stepping outside my comfort zone in almost every way possible.  It’s going to be good for me, I know it.  Prayers for all of that is appreciated as the next 6 months of my life are going to get increasingly busy, difficult, exciting, scary, and everything else mixed in.

I started using iCal on my Mac to schedule things and I see the next 3 months slowly but surely filling up with different dates and events I have.  Getting my E-Group kit tonight included a ton of dates I’ll need to throw in there.  Life is getting busier, and I’ll have a lot of changes to make.  I’m also moving in about 6 weeks 35-40mins away.  That’s a change as well.  A new place (all mine!), in an area of WNY I’ve been to many times but isn’t where I’ve lived before.  New neighbors, new routine since I’ll be living alone and providing for every need, and LOTS of expenses.  Besides the new editing desk I plan to buy for my office (finally have a room that’s JUST an office!) and a double bed, I won’t have ANY furniture at the start.  It’ll look completely empty.  Even my TV will have to stay in its box until I get an entertainment stand that it can go on or something, because it can’t sit on a floor the way it’s made.  It’ll take some time to fill the place but I’ll get there.  Those first few months are going to be extremely expensive.

I gotta be honest, one of my greatest worries is finances.  I don’t mean right now I just mean in general.  It’s hard to relinquish the control to the Lord at times when it comes to funds.  I have to learn the lesson over and over again it seems, and God is faithful each time to take care of me.  With all that’s going on in life, and where God has been moving me locationally not just with opportunities but with friends, where I’m moving is the right decision and I’m confident of that.  So I need to be confident that if God led me to move out that way finally, then he’ll provide a way for me to stay there.

The current Church Screenings purchased start shipping on the 16th, so there’s a lot to do to make sure those are ready to go just in case I get any rush of them because of the shipping date.  Lots of folks have looked at the page, but I think the pre-order status scared some folks away.  Hopefully once I announce them ready to ship immediately, I’ll get a few more bites!

Lots of stuff to do…keep me in prayer please!

It’s funny, yesterday while I was at Vintage (a college group ministry) I felt like I needed to leave during the ending of the message and just go read.  I left early enough that I was able to quickly read through a slew of different books of the bible.  I read 1, 2, and 3 John…Titus, Jude, some of Hebrews, some Romans, etc.  I read all sorts of things that really stuck me hard given what was going on in my life recently and what I knew was coming.  Much has come down on me yesterday and today.  Various phone calls, discouraging emails, etc. that made my day very miserable.  It was tough to keep my eye on the ball because right after something else happened another thing happened.  Not all of it was even bad, just weighty and very important.

I’ll be honest, my greatest struggle is just letting go of things I can’t control.  Whether it’s what people think of me because of something I’ve done, or not done, or said, or not said, or anything else…it’s hard for me to simply let go and realize I’ve said my peace.  There have been so many trials in the last year and many recently that have hit me hard, and I need to remember that suffering is refining.  If you remember, I posted something a few weeks ago where I just laid out on the table everything that was on my mind and asked the Lord to bring the fire if that’s what he wanted.  Now I find him bringing it, go figure! LOL.  I asked for it, and I understand that it’s of God and will make me a greater man of God…but it’s tough to remember that.

I couldn’t remember what passage I had read at Vintage until tonight when me and Denise were talking and I looked through the back end of my bible many times.  By the way, I am the luckiest guy ever…Denise is amazing.  I’m blessed to have her.  I love you if your reading this!

What I read was Hebrews 12…specifically 12:3 through 12:17. Give that a read, and you’ll see what I mean.  I hope that passage blesses you.  It’s definitely one I will remember and refer back to many times over.  Unfortunately the world teaches the opposite of what that passage is saying.  Anything “negative” is bad…it can’t be good…because it’s…”negative.”  Well sorry world, I believe in a God who gives me Romans 8:28 (one of two theme verses for Standing Firm) and shows it to be true on a consistant basis.  That verse shows it’s legitimacy every single day.

As tough as today was, I will persevere and take heart in God’s promises.  Another passage I read recently that speaks directly into my situation is James 4:13-17.  I need to keep my eye on the prize, and understand that God has gone before me.  It’s tough to hang onto that sometimes, and I had my areas of fault today and in recent days, but if it be God’s WILL, I WILL get through this.  I believe it is His Will and where he’s leading and has been leading for a few years in creating this film…so I need to work with confidence towards the goal.

I get so fired up about this stuff…lol.  I hope those passages are a blessing, they are for me.  So much to do, so little time…peace out folks, I need some rest.

There are times I feel I lose my focus.  I lose my drive, my determination, my energy, and all things related to progress.  Sometimes it’s sleep, sometimes it’s too much recreation, sometimes it’s just plain laziness, and other times it’s me spiritually lacking, even if those previous aspects are in check.  Besides whatever reading I do, I’m just going to commit to listening to sermons online all day while I work.  I think that will benefit me greatly and keep God’s Word and his truths pumping through my brain, even if at times I’m not fully concentrated because I’m working.  I feel like just having it playing will keep my mind focused on the light and on the things of God.  People underestimate the power of God’s Word when your actually reading it, and I think just as many underestimate what listening to solid bible teachers online can do for you.  Obviously you read God’s Word to get God’s truth from His Word, so why not go to the literal thousands of available audio sermons online, find a topic, and just listen to 8 hours of a pastor explaining God’s truth from His Word on a given topic?  How could your time be spent better?  I really love listening to that stuff, it gets me pumped and I learn so much.

I watched the first 23 minutes or so of Standing Firm yesterday trying to really concentrate on what the film was feeding me.  It’s tough because I can’t go in fresh as if I know nothing, but I can get a clear view of the pacing of the film if I step back a bit and come back to the edit later.  I really was surprised at how much I enjoyed watching the film and how well it was working for me.  I get very afraid when looking at my own work, just always wondering if I’m fooling myself.  I don’t have a lot of time to fight with that anymore Time is getting short (thank goodness, because it gives me a forceful push forward) and I need to lock this film SOON.  We have been Blessed with enough investment to finish the film.  The amount was just enough for me to combine my own investment and get the Score/Sound-Mix/and Distribution/Marketing costs completed or at least over the peak.  That is very encouraging to know considering it’s been an unknown for so long.  God is good!

I just can’t wait to see what God does with this film, it makes me crazy just thinking about it.  Regardless of the reaction to the film or the naysayers that WILL come along, I’m honored to have the chance to create something that could be used by God to reach someone for himself.  What a cool thing to be apart of!  We passed 2000 followers today on Twitter, which was really hard to do but I’m glad I can start moving higher.  Our fan page is doing well, getting near the 8000 mark.  8 THOUSAND…wow.  Just the thought that 8000 people have at least heard of this film blows my mind, lol.

Denise is doing well It was funny today at Vintage seeing some peoples reactions to the fact I had a girl next to me.  I’ve never had a girlfriend and most people that know me know that, so their facial expressions were comical.  I’m just so Blessed to have her, it’s amazing.  It makes me think so differently.  Finding somebody that makes you want to draw even nearer to God than before because they’re now with you is the perfect person to find.  Someone who you can serve Jesus together with and become the greatest possible version of yourself because of that.  I am Blessed beyond words, and pretty darn vocal about it ha ha!

Life is going well, and I’m so happy right now More than I have been in a long time.  Why God is choosing to Bless me right now, I have no idea.  I just keep thankfulness on the brain, and move forward with a smile.  2010 is looking like a God-year, how about you?

When I woke up this morning, I was dead tired.  I had gotten 6 hours of sleep, and the previous days had me getting about that if just a little bit more.  Tonight will be the night to sleep for a LONG TIME.  Joan Golda came over to get some help on a website.  She’s always so fun to talk with and just help her with stuff.  She said I helped her a lot so I’m glad, and my reward…two cases of Slimfast.  I had already had a box in the fridge and she randomly showed up with two more boxes, ha ha.  Looks like I won’t be touching cereal for a long time.

After she was gone it was about 2pm or something…idk.  I just talked with folks, had a long conversation with my mom (hadn’t had one in a while), and worked on getting the film ready to render before burning it to a DVD tomorrow morning.  I feel pretty good about the trailer.  I did get some negative feedback just before I left for Vintage but out of the 12-15 people that have seen it, only 2 have given some overhaul type comments so I think I’m good.  In the past everyone had a quibble or the same things to say, so I think I’ve found something in the middle ground.  I’m pretty happy with it, and most others seem to like it just fine.  We’ll see in a day or so.  I’m hesitant to post it officially because I like to sit on things and give it more thought.  I prefer to be completely sure before putting something out there that represents my product, it’s just good to do that.

Around 6pm I headed to Wilson for a small group with some friends which was nice.  It wasn’t like the official one but a kickoff where we just learned what was going to be studied and shared things with each other the rest of the time.  I learned a lot about the folks I’ve been hanging around for months so that was a plus.  I’ve met a lot of new people lately, and I’m glad.  There are plenty of healthy relationships that can be built around here, I just need to dig a little deeper.

Vintage was solid, and I made an effort to go talk to way more people when it let out.  Even folks I sorta knew I walked up and said hello to.  I signed up for an E-Group which is a small group that meets just before Vintage so that’ll probably X out the other one I went to today in the future.  That’s ok though, I’ll live.  You can only do so much  I’m bummed though that I have to miss the E-Group retreat which is on the same weekend as a friends wedding.  What a great way to meet new folks and spend time with others I don’t know as well…but I’ll have to miss it.

Applebees after Vintage was great.  Sat with some new folks this time and floated around to other tables before leaving.  I make sure I make the rounds before I go just to say hi to everyone and catch up.  There are some great friends that I hope to know better in the next year.  If I’m in NY to stay then they’ll be some changes.  Time to get more aggressive and build some lasting friendships…

Overall a pretty great day of social activity  Tomorrow I mail of Standing Firm to Affirm Films and see what they say.  I’ve been waiting over 2 years for this moment and it’s finally here.  The film isn’t even done, but this is a big step.  The post office lady will have to rip it out of my hands, but I’ll live.

G’night folks.

Today was a really compressed day.  I didn’t get a whole lot done since I got up so late.  My body was sorta catching up from the previous nights.  I noticed I’m getting skinnier still since I got home.  I hover around that 205 mark but I think it wont take me long to sink another 5 pounds or more.  It has a lot to do with the fact that I’m home and eating at home I think because almost all this weight loss has been diet related.  It’s nice to see that belly shrinking, I must say.  I can’t remember how thin I was my first year in college a few years back but I would love to get back there.

It’s been almost a month since I’ve been home and its definitely had its weird moments.  Living alone is one thing but living alone at home is another.  The house is always empty and quiet, which is fine with me.  The one thing that I like is when I come home, I know that everything is the way I left it.  Nothing moved, nothing changed, etc.  If I put it there a week ago and didn’t move it, it’s still there.  Just a weird little thing that I like.

Beyond that my day was pretty much just chatting with folks and waiting for 7pm to roll around so I could head to Vintage.  I love the worship there and the people that I only see once a week.  Unfortunately it’s ending next week then there is a 7 week break so I won’t get to go again until around December since I leave for Memphis.  Also end of next week I fly out to Memphis to meet folks there and shake hands with some of the crew face to face.  We’ll be doing a lot of work in just a weekend so I’m looking forward to that.  Vintage was great, the message was great, and Jason showed up this week which was a treat.  He hadn’t been there in a long time and we just hung around until it was time to go eat.  Applebees has become a tradition, and their boneless buffalo wings are something I consume at least once every week.  We stuck around until closing time.  Great conversation that I won’t repeat  Lets just say it was hilarious and move on.

Just a typical tuesday for me, not much else to report.  Tomorrow’s another day and I have some work to do.

I got up really late today, I’m not sure why.  Normally I wake up a few times in the morning and fall back asleep.  Today I just slept long and hard without any interruptions.  I didn’t really work on the film much today.  I can’t remember exactly what my day entailed…mostly it was just fun stuff.  Since I was up late as well I didn’t have time to do much before evening when Vintage would be starting.  I got to see a lot of great folks again when I got there.  I love going to Vintage.  Because of where I live I see a lot of friends I don’t normally hang out with during my week.  Distance becomes a big factor when you live 40 minutes to an hour away from almost everyone.  I thought a lot on my way home about The Grace Card.  There is so much to do and my involvement seems like it’ll be much more than previously thought.  This kind of opportunity is really big and I want to see it all the way through.  It’s odd working on a project that isn’t specifically yours.  Being far away from everyone else on the team is making it difficult I think.  I’m also juggling my films completion, trying to get the edit put together which I know I’ll accomplish really soon.  We’re at the point where God needs to bring us something or we’re out of luck.  Financially we can’t afford a score, and we hope that somehow we can find an answer to that problem.  Also when I go to TN I need to make sure I can continue whatever work is needed on the film.  I’ll need to make sure my computer can be properly setup wherever it is to do the work needed.  I think nothing has been harder than working on a project like this alone.  Encouragement is great and it helps but pushing all the buttons and pulling all the levers on your own is rough.  I know I’m supposed to go to TN and thank goodness God had that planned because if I didn’t have that opportunity coming up, I would be in financial ruin by Sept 1st…if not sooner.  I’ll say it folks, I’m near broke.  My last check still hasn’t arrived and even if it’s in the mail there is a 5 day hold on the check.  My account balance is OK at the moment but only because my July rent check from CA hasn’t been extracted.  After that I’m under 150 dollars in my account.  I can’t even get my oil changed, I’m afraid to.  I rolled quarters and I’m going to deposit them tomorrow so I can get an extra $30 in the account.  Interesting times for sure, but I feel like everything is OK…just complicated.  Once I get the other check in the mail and deposited (and added after the 5 days) I should be Ok until I leave for TN, but it’ll be close.  I’ve never done any of this before, that’s what’s weird.  If our film gets into SAICFF when we enter it, I have until Feb 2010 to get it FINISHED 100%.  I feel like that could be difficult if I’m busy with The Grace Card until Thanksgiving.  I’ve always juggled two jobs it seems but never two films.  Also living somewhere else while I’m doing that will be difficult as my business partner will be stuck in NY during the whole process.  If Standing Firm finds a buyer I hope I don’t get caught between The Grace Card and having to drive/fly to wherever the deal needs to be made via Distribution.  It’s just going to be an insane year, I can tell.  It could be an incredibly profitable and rewarding year…but getting there will be a challenge.  The edit of the film may be coming together but the film is FAR from done.

We’ll see what happens.

Today was a tuesday, and man do I love tuesdays.  I finally got to go to Vintage, after a month of absence.  Vintage is a college group where a couple hundred go and learn about the Word at The Chapel at Crosspoint, one of the larger churches in the WNY area.  I’ll get back to that though…

I got up late again today.  Ever since I went to bed at 3am the first night here I haven’t been able to get back on track.  I have energy until early morning then get up around that noon mark.  My clock is all thrown from all the late nights I’ve had driving and such.  Sooner or later I’ll get back on track but that basically means I’ll have to either be extremely tired, or try and go to bed while I’m full of energy…both of which don’t interest me at all.

I made plans the day before to meet up with a high school friend of mine I hadn’t seen since graduation.  We had talked a time or two online but that’s it.  His name is Josh Lowery (JoshLowery.com) and it turns out we have similar interests.  Web/Graphic Design things mostly, so we just chatted about that.  I told him about California and how things went over there, why I’m back, what I’m hoping to work on, etc.  In the middle of talking about school one of our classmates walked in.  She said “hey Josh” really awkwardly and just walked by without a “hey Kyle.”  It was awkward, so I laughed it off.  She never really liked me much, lol.  Anyways the rest of the lunch went well and we just talked and laughed about a ton of things.  I’m sure many in our class would raise an eyebrow to see both of us sitting there chatting it up like that but whatever, High School is over ha ha.

Afterwards I went home and just worked on a few small things until 2:30 or so when me and Brad headed to Youngstown to play some tennis.  Brad is my best friend without a doubt, and we’ve shared some hilarious times together.  Tennis is on of my favorite sports to play next to Hockey, Ping Pong, and Volleyball.  I hadn’t played in months so I was rusty (obviously), but we had a great time.  We kept laughing as we played about how it used to be when we played at Lewport (a local school that has courts).  Brad used to get so mad when he lost and I give him grace because that guy had the worst luck in the world.  Stupid ridiculous things would happen to him on a regular basis.  Like he would lose every game then go over and his water bottle cape would fall off as he drank and soak him, that kind of stuff.

It was already 5:30 or so when I got home from playing so I started to get ready on and off that next hour and a a half.  Vintage starts at about 8 but I like to get there around 7:30 to hang out with folks.  On my way I got stuck behind this annoying truck.  Not big truck, just a normal sized annoying vehicle with a wide back end.  He was going the speed limit so bravo, but sorta hovering just below it and I was running late.  I didn’t want to speed but I wanted to be right at 45mph, not 43 lol.  Because his back end was so wide and he was riding the line as a result of his cell phone antics, I couldn’t see around him….grr.

I arrived at Vintage and saw a few friends that missed me.  I got the same kind of responses as Sunday Morning which was that surprised goofy face everyone makes when they’re shocked to see someone.  It was especially comical when Ashley Stromberg saw me and I said “hey ashley” and she said “hey!” and then looked back down.  About 2 second later she snapped her head back up, “omg wait a minute what are you doing here!  give me a hug!” LOL.  It didn’t hit her until a few seconds had passed who she was looking at.  Either way Vintage continued on and the message was really great.  It had a lot to do with what we spoke about late on the 4th of July at Brads house.  Submitting to Government according to Romans 12.  It’s a tough pill to swallow for some but I practically live by that concept.  Not the government part, but the hiding meaning behind that sort of mentality.  If God is sovereign, and he knows all, that means nothing happens without his say so.  Not a car accident, death, sprained ankle, bitter argument, and especially who is over you in authority.  We focus too much on what we’re asked to do and less on the who, something that Romans 12 tries to point out.  Only when the who asks us to do something blatantly wrong is it ok to resist, and there is nothing wrong with questioning authority…but we do need to be careful and discerning.  God works through human authority…he always has.  See I’m not of the mindset that God just makes things happen down on earth in a direct way.  If you consider the fact that you have billions of people all moving throughout their lives and interacting with each other, what you have is a giant mangled mess of interaction effecting everyones daily outcome.  If a guy slams on his breaks in traffic, that ripple is felt a long way back.  Perhaps he didn’t do that?  That means everyone who was effected by it gets to wherever they were going a few seconds late which for some could mean missing their chance to see that one person in their life, or it means that their life was just saved as they would’ve been hit by another car running a red light.  A few seconds matters…and I think God works through the lives of everyone on earth knowing exactly how each one effects another and in return puts His Will into effect.  Can you imagine that?  Being able to keep track of all those interactions throughout the day, 365 days a year, for billions of people?  We tend to think about how big the universe is to compare to God’s size, or His Word to judge his vast intelligence but just mathematically the idea of keeping track of every single movement of an individual throughout their entire lifetime and multiplying that by everyone on the planet, then being able to keep track of it all at once is enough for me to understand Gods size.

Either way it was a good day and ending it at Applebees with friends was great.  I got home and stayed up again because I was just too awake.  We’ll see how long it takes me to get back on track…

Today was another day of ADR for Rob.  I got up in the morning and meant to go to work to run something quick then run home but I was just too behind.  We got to work as soon as Rob got here and it took us about 4 hours to complete things.  We goofed around a little towards the end, putting in our voices for other actors.  It was fun putting in my voice for Pastor in a scene and….editing the dialog.  We sent it to him and waited for his phone call, he laughed immediately.  It was great fun, our cheeks were killing us watching a few short scenes with the absolute wrong voices on peoples faces.  Afterwards I waited for my mom to get home, ate some lunch, and played her in ping pong.  She told me to “hurry up and eat your hot dogs, I have to wup you in ping pong.”  I played her and won, woo!  I love playing ping pong…and I hope for a nice day on my b-day so we can play forever ha ha.

Later I went to Vintage and said goodbye to a lot of people I wont see for a very long time.  It was bittersweet at best.  I found myself saying goodbye to people more than once during the night, I couldn’t help it.  Everyone had good things to say and encouraged me which meant a lot.  Applebee’s was fun, and the buffalo wings were subpar…they always shortchange me.  Either way it was a great day and I had lots of fun.  Tomorrow is going to be pretty nuts and tiring.  I have our last day of shooting tomorrow, and I’m a bit nervous about completing it…not because of the amount of stuff (the amount is very little), it’s because of my uncertainty of what exactly I need.  I have a good idea but it’s just one of those “I don’t know” circumstances that scares me to death.  We also have something else to do tomorrow I wont mention but I’ve been dreading it for a long time.  Hopefully the day ends well.  I gotta figure out a way to get some ministry work done too after the shoot and the other stuff.  Should be a busy day, and a long one.

Move to CA To-Do List:
- Shoot Tomorrow then come home to do ADR with Eric till night (Eric wrapped)
- Do ADR with Eric all day Saturday if we don’t finish tomorrow
- Sunday is church, then a going away potluck for me with friends and family, then hanging with friends later in the day who I probably won’t see again unless I visit (sadness…)
- Last day of shooting with Rob at church
- Go to my last Vintage night at Tuesday and cry as I say goodbye to friends.
- Shoot Pastor’s interview for the film as well as my Gaffer’s and my moms.
- Finish ADR recording with Katy and Maggie, and anything left with Aaron.
- Work on all the ADR recorded to make sure I’m not missing anything and all takes are good and fit.
- Get any shots that might be left for the film like establishing shots while I have the chance.
- Begin packing.
- Shop for a new wardrobe all day one of the days.
- Somehow work in a 40hr work week at the church (my last)
- Complete training of volunteers for the taping at church and anything needed to be worked out with the guy taking my job in ministry.
- Finalize trip details
- Visit with any other friends and family while I have the chance.
- Finish planning my Bday/Going Away party and have it!

When Devan showed me, I had to get a picture of this shirt.

I FINALLY went shopping for new clothes today.  I don’t shop, in fact I haven’t really gotten a lot of new clothes besides maybe a pair of shoes and a shirt…for at least 3 years.  I have old High School shirts lying around that I’ve dumped and in the past month I’ve been rotating my clothing.  I simply don’t have enough and needed a new wardrobe pretty much.  I had some help from some female friends of mine (thanks Devan and Mallorie!), and they did a good job  I got some awesome stuff and I’m really happy with the quantity.  I needed jeans, shorts, shirts, some nicer buttoned shirts, flip flops, a belt or two, etc.  I got a nice pile of threads now…pretty cool.  They also forced me to get some color so I now own shirts in colors I never wore before like green, yellow, lighter blue, etc.  They look great though.  I was exhausted by the time we were done, and these stupid bags I had from the first store we went too had given me blisters and raw fingers lol.  The handles were like cheap twisted paper and they were eating away my skin.

New Stuff...woo!

I also cleaned out my car today.  I had a garbage bag worth of junk to throw out.  I had bottles, reciepts, odd papers and stuff, and a bunch of other odd things.  I vacuumed it out and got all the rocks and junk that had accumulated since winter.  I can’t believe how many rocks were in my drivers seat.  All over the floor, little pebbles from our driveway from each time I got into my car.  There was probably a hundred of them or more piled in there haha.

After shopping I went to a going away party for a friend.  I only stayed for maybe a half hour because I was so tired.  It was sorta a hi and bye type of thing.  Not going wasn’t an option so I popped in to say hello and scoot.  I’m glad to be home and relaxing.  Since the ADR with Eric didn’t go over into today, next week should be a little easier since one days stuff has been written off today!  That makes me feel better, perhaps the week wont seem as nuts…it’ll still be nuts but yea you get my point.

9 Days folks….9 Days.

Move to CA To-Do List:
- Shoot Tomorrow then come home to do ADR with Eric till night (Eric wrapped)
- Do ADR with Eric all day Saturday if we don’t finish tomorrow
- Sunday is church, then a going away potluck for me with friends and family, then hanging with friends later in the day who I probably won’t see again unless I visit (sadness…)
- Last day of shooting with Rob at church
- Go to my last Vintage night at Tuesday and cry as I say goodbye to friends.
- Shoot Pastor’s interview for the film as well as my Gaffer’s and my moms.
- Finish ADR recording with Katy and Maggie, and anything left with Aaron.
- Work on all the ADR recorded to make sure I’m not missing anything and all takes are good and fit.
- Get any shots that might be left for the film like establishing shots while I have the chance.
- Begin packing.
- Shop for a new wardrobe all day one of the days.
- Somehow work in a 40hr work week at the church (my last)
- Complete training of volunteers for the taping at church and anything needed to be worked out with the guy taking my job in ministry.
- Finalize trip details
- Visit with any other friends and family while I have the chance.
- Finish planning my Bday/Going Away party and have it!

Ok so tomorrow starts one long stream of insanity starting with the second to the last day of shooting tomorrow.  Here is what is on my list for the next 9 days starting tomorrow and ending on the 23rd of May:

- Shoot Tomorrow then come home to do ADR with Eric till night (Eric wrapped)
- Do ADR with Eric all day Saturday if we don’t finish tomorrow
- Sunday is church, then a going away potluck for me with friends and family, then hanging with friends later in the day who I probably won’t see again unless I visit (sadness…)
- Last day of shooting with Rob at church
- Go to my last Vintage night at Tuesday and cry as I say goodbye to friends.
- Shoot Pastor’s interview for the film as well as my Gaffer’s and my moms.
- Finish ADR recording with Katy and Maggie, and anything left with Aaron.
- Work on all the ADR recorded to make sure I’m not missing anything and all takes are good and fit.
- Get any shots that might be left for the film like establishing shots while I have the chance.
- Begin packing.
- Shop for a new wardrobe all day one of the days.
- Somehow work in a 40hr work week at the church (my last)
- Complete training of volunteers for the taping at church and anything needed to be worked out with the guy taking my job in ministry.
- Finalize trip details
- Visit with any other friends and family while I have the chance.
- Finish planning my Bday/Going Away party and have it!

There is probably something missing but yea you get the point.  It’s going to be INSANE.

I worked on ADR with Rob today in the morning.  It went pretty well and the takes seem to work good.  It’s moving along a lot faster than I thought, thank goodness.  After that I relaxed for a bit then headed to work with a headache.  I talked to someone on Facebook for a while that really gave me a pounding headache.  It was driving me nuts.  Luckily it went away at work and I finished up some stuff.  Some guy had his daughter on the playground at the church and he just kept letting her scream like a raving lunatic.  I wanted to go give him an earful but restrained myself.  It sounded like she was being murdered.

Afterwards I went home and continued to work on the post sound stuff and ADR from today to try and clean it up and get some of it actually in place and mixed.  It looks like things will work well.  The next week is going to have me doing a lot of sound work to make sure I don’t miss anything….should be busy.

After that I got invited to go to the gym to work out so I went.  It was fun.  I did some biking, some basic arm exercises, and spent most of my time on the leg press.  I probably did about 50 presses working my way up from 110lbs up to the limit on the machine which was about 390.  My legs are pretty big, one thing that I think is just genetic LOL.  I hate what I look like in shorts…I look like a retard.  I’ll sweat like crazy in CA in jeans all the time but honestly I just can’t stand the shape of my body.  Maybe I’m just not a big fan of big legs, no matter how much muscle is/isn’t on them.  Maybe shorts that actually fit would make that less embarrassing for me haha.  I had old High School shorts on that needed to be tightened with a belt by like 4inches or so.  

After that on my way out I got a call from a friend who got ripped off by someone I can’t stand.  He ripped me and our film off in the past and is a big joke.  I told my friend what he was, what he did, and NEVER to return his calls again.  I can’t believe this guy.  I’ll keep his name silent although he does deserve to be brought out into the light.  I went home very upset because my buddy works hard and absolutely doesn’t deserve to be treated like that.  I hope I don’t run into him in CA or I’ll give him an earful, I don’t care how old the man is.  I saw right through him a few months ago when that whole nightmare happened during our trip to California…I’m just bummed my friend wasn’t so discerning.  We paid him what we “owed” him out of principle and nothing more.  In no way did we owe him a dime.  Enough grilling of him, I’m done.  I just hope someone really calls him out on how he treats people one day, I don’t have enough breath in my lungs to say what I would want to.  All those who know him and work with him that know me (or know who I’m talking about)…if your reading this and you keep silent the way you do while that slim-ball rips off more people, shame on you.

I’m tired, got some prep to do before tomorrows shoot.  G’night, keep me in prayer.  I got a lot of crap to do in a short amount of time.  *vroom vroom*