Life of Kyle Prohaska

It’s funny, yesterday while I was at Vintage (a college group ministry) I felt like I needed to leave during the ending of the message and just go read.  I left early enough that I was able to quickly read through a slew of different books of the bible.  I read 1, 2, and 3 John…Titus, Jude, some of Hebrews, some Romans, etc.  I read all sorts of things that really stuck me hard given what was going on in my life recently and what I knew was coming.  Much has come down on me yesterday and today.  Various phone calls, discouraging emails, etc. that made my day very miserable.  It was tough to keep my eye on the ball because right after something else happened another thing happened.  Not all of it was even bad, just weighty and very important.

I’ll be honest, my greatest struggle is just letting go of things I can’t control.  Whether it’s what people think of me because of something I’ve done, or not done, or said, or not said, or anything else…it’s hard for me to simply let go and realize I’ve said my peace.  There have been so many trials in the last year and many recently that have hit me hard, and I need to remember that suffering is refining.  If you remember, I posted something a few weeks ago where I just laid out on the table everything that was on my mind and asked the Lord to bring the fire if that’s what he wanted.  Now I find him bringing it, go figure! LOL.  I asked for it, and I understand that it’s of God and will make me a greater man of God…but it’s tough to remember that.

I couldn’t remember what passage I had read at Vintage until tonight when me and Denise were talking and I looked through the back end of my bible many times.  By the way, I am the luckiest guy ever…Denise is amazing.  I’m blessed to have her.  I love you if your reading this!

What I read was Hebrews 12…specifically 12:3 through 12:17. Give that a read, and you’ll see what I mean.  I hope that passage blesses you.  It’s definitely one I will remember and refer back to many times over.  Unfortunately the world teaches the opposite of what that passage is saying.  Anything “negative” is bad…it can’t be good…because it’s…”negative.”  Well sorry world, I believe in a God who gives me Romans 8:28 (one of two theme verses for Standing Firm) and shows it to be true on a consistant basis.  That verse shows it’s legitimacy every single day.

As tough as today was, I will persevere and take heart in God’s promises.  Another passage I read recently that speaks directly into my situation is James 4:13-17.  I need to keep my eye on the prize, and understand that God has gone before me.  It’s tough to hang onto that sometimes, and I had my areas of fault today and in recent days, but if it be God’s WILL, I WILL get through this.  I believe it is His Will and where he’s leading and has been leading for a few years in creating this film…so I need to work with confidence towards the goal.

I get so fired up about this stuff…lol.  I hope those passages are a blessing, they are for me.  So much to do, so little time…peace out folks, I need some rest.