Life of Kyle Prohaska

Not sure where to go with this post.  I’m probably going to be all over the place.  There have been a lot of lessons learned and much thought about lately.  Some unfortunate circumstances and things that I’ve done, some weird conversations, a few discouraging moments and encouraging ones, you know how it is.  It never ceases to amaze me how easy someones day can be ruined or how quickly joy can turn to sorrow.  Today I was casually talking to a friend and I said something that wasn’t supposed to mean anything, and in fact I was talking about myself…but apparently that wasn’t how it was taken because 30 seconds later I found myself being called a jerk, and them leaving.  Not a fun situation to be in.  I melt like a baby when I realize someone is upset with me.  I emailed immediately to apologize and then called.  I haven’t heard anything back unfortunately, but I prayed God would show himself in it somehow.  I hate it when stuff like that happens.  When was the last time you were misunderstood greatly?  Or you said something you were just about to explain but it’s too late because it was taken wrong already and your ability to do so is gone.  It sucks a lot…probably one of the most gut wrenching things for me.

I’m going to start writing more articles soon, I have way too much rolling around in my head.  I think about filmmaking a lot, and the business side of things too.  I’ve learned much in the last few years, and I think there are some thoughts I can write down that will hopefully help out some others that are in the position I was in.  Perhaps I can save them some grief and help them avoid a few mistakes?  There’s a lot of talk out there by folks who have yet to actually try and do what they’re talking about.  Lots of “facts” that have no experience behind them or information beyond a random Twitter post from Joe Blow.  You know how it is, and I’ve done it too.  I’ll need to get on the ball with some of that stuff.  Most of what’s been on my mind on/off is proper perspective on what your film/story is, whether or not it can sell, what the state of the market is, and how to take smart steps in determining how much you should spend on your film (and that can be changed by so many factors) given the answers to those previous questions.  I think too many are spending way more than they need to and expecting some sort of magical profit that doesn’t exist in this market.  Until you hear REAL numbers on what even the successful people make, you think your the invincible filmmaker that’ll have the next smash hit and make piles of cash.  It’s a shame…so much waste.

Things with Denise are going well I love her more each time we talk.  We’ve gone through some more serious conversation lately and I’m thankful.  It helps us learn more about who we are as people, and get a deeper understand of what we’re both thinking about.  I’ve waited my whole life to have somebody to be completely honest with and someone I can be open with about things I haven’t even spoken about with close friends or family.  That’s a special bond.  I’m really thankful to have her, she’s a treasure.  If your reading this babe I love you!  Your beautiful and I’m so thankful to have you in my life!

Things with the movie are progressing at a pretty steady pace.  I still feel a tad lazy compared to how the last few years have been, but I see the light at the end of the tunnel more and more.  The score should be done very soon, final sound mix, and I’m gathering other materials for marketing.  The PR on the internet has really gone crazy lol.  I know some might not put much stock in Twitter but when you’ve gone up 3500+ followers in 15 days, you’ll raise your eyebrow too.  Films our size don’t get this kind of attention.  I work as hard as I can to get the word out and have been for three years straight, and it looks like it’s working.  Praise God!  I looked at the folks waiting for church screening information, there’s about 220 churches.  That’s crazy in my opinion.  Who knows how many will actually be interested but still, I’m excited.

I’m a little shaky on work right now given some recent circumstances, but that’s ok.  I sorta saw it coming.  I’m hoping this other job I hold doesn’t fall through then I’ll really be in trouble.  I depend on these two steady jobs to pay my bills so I’m a little worried but God will take care of me.  This is such a critical time and the worst for me to be so busy trying to pay for my car that the completion of the film suffers.  After this long I can’t afford (literally) for that to happen.  Pray for me please…

So that’s all I’ve got to say, till next time folks.  Thanks for reading!