Life of Kyle Prohaska

You know, jealousy is a tough thing to bear.  Sometimes it can be so strong in my mind.  All this week I’ve been pretty depressed.  I haven’t felt like I’ve been productive so naturally I started thinking of ways to try and be, to do something useful.  I thought about next year, the next few months, then started thinking about all the people I know that seem to have so much going for them and making enormous amounts of money at my age with more opportunities pouring in every day.  Even today talking to a friend he mentioned getting an offer to make about 50k in about 3 weeks doing some work.  That’s more than I have ever made in a year, about twice as much actually.  In three weeks mind you.  Even while talking he had to leave for a second because he had gotten a phone call for more work.  Things like that seem to happening around me a lot lately and I think it’s because God is trying to teach me something very critical.  THIS WORLD MEANS NOTHING, Christ means everything, I mean nothing, Christ means everything, what I want means nothing, Christ means everything, material possessions mean nothing, Christ means everything, and on and on it goes.  I really had to break myself today and tell myself to shut up.  Somehow the enemy had me convinced that I wasn’t doing anything and was going nowhere.  Have I forgotten where I’ve come from?  What has God done in the last few years of my life?  How could I even think how I was…I can’t believe myself.  I have two jobs, both of which look to be making me more than I’ve ever made in a year.  One of them is marketing a film for the entire year and I’m only 21 years old.  Another is working for one of the most well known Christian filmmakers ever.  I have a feature film almost completed after 3 years of tireless work, and it’s possible it could be in national stores this August, just after my 22nd birthday.  I have a girlfriend who loves me and is one of the greatest people in my life.  I have parents who love me, a house to live in, my expenses are pretty low, my income is high, God has gifted me with talents to use for His names sake…WHAT AM I DOING!

I’m telling you…anybody that may read this blog.  Please do not put me on a pedestal.  I don’t say that to sound self-righteous, as if I would ever be even remotely worthy of being put on one or could understand if somebody did.  Do not place me in some untouchable place, because I fail all the time.  I’m a human being who makes a ton of mistakes.  If there’s one thing I’ve learned in the past few years, it’s that people who you come to love and respect, are just as capable of tearing you down, disappointing you, etc. than anybody else.  Nothing about their knowledge, age, status, etc. means anything in those situations.  All fall short of perfection.  Just being honest with all of you, I’m not a prime example to be followed.  I thank all that read this and gain something positive from it, but God gets the credit for that because more often than not this blog is full of my crap and not my Christ.  Shame on me for that, but I’m glad God uses it somehow…

God is doing great things, and I’m really excited to see what new opportunities open after this film comes out.  I don’t know where I’m going with this career or what I’m going to do completely, but God does.  Just doing the best I can to keep up…I have no reasons to be complaining, NONE.

We have about 125 churches signed up to receive information about how to hold church screenings of Standing Firm when the time comes.  That’s really awesome news for me.  The list grows every day.  I’m stoked to see how many of our list actually sign up to have a screening at their church, that’s going to be awesome.  We won’t be in theaters but we could be at a church near you!

Thanks to all who read this and decide to come back…I appreciate the support.  Blessings to you!