Life of Kyle Prohaska

I’ve been absent for the last two weeks almost.  That’s a lot of “life of kyle” and no posts.  Well I suppose that is fitting as the last two weeks have been some of the most personal to me.  As I mentioned in my last entry on New Years I have met a girl…a very special girl.  A girl that is everything I’ve ever been looking for plus more.  A girl that makes me smile and causes me to sit up and listen when she speaks.  Through what she says, how she acts, what she wants to be, and who she is right now makes me want to be the greatest man of God I can be, for her and for the Lord.  How could I be looking for anything less than that?  I always wondered what that would feel like, and now I know

This isn’t some puppy love thing or some sort of falling fast ridiculous love train that I got somehow swept up onto, this is real.  We didn’t hit the gas pedal and we didn’t hit the breaks.  All that happened was extremely organic and completely driven by conversation and the Lord showing himself in awesome ways.  I don’t feel I need to explain all those things, I just thought you’d all like to know that this is a God relationship, not a good one.  To me that makes all the difference in the world, and what I always wanted!  Let me just state my case and say that I would never be dating just anyone.  I have NEVER dated before, ever.  I’ve never held a girls hand in a “romantic” way (besides Denise and the first time was new years when the ball dropped), never kissed, never…you know (obviously), and never truly pursued someone, because I didn’t feel there was anyone that was really worth it.  Whatever your views are, that’s fine…but dating for me is practice for marriage.  I would never date someone I wasn’t really certain I could probably marry.  We were talking about things out of the gate before there was even a real interest (the interest in each other sprang from talking about these things).  Do you want kids?  How many?  What do you want in marriage?  What do you want in the future?  What’s your hope for a home life?  What are your spiritual goals?  All these kinds of deeper questions that most don’t get to until months later sometimes were the first out of the gate.  We were laughing at just how on par we were with each other on everything.  God was already making us go “hmm…is this really possible??”

Me & Denise

I find myself even though it has not been long asking her questions some would consider “weird,” but they’re exactly the kind of questions each should be asking (and if your married, you especially should).  Is there anything I can do to make you happier?  Do you need to talk about anything?  What did God teach you today?  How are you feeling emotionally?  Am I doing anything to make you stumble?  She is asking these things as well, and we’re completely transparent on the issues which has been key from the get go.  Yes I’m only her boyfriend, but I still care about making sure that she is taken care of in anyway that I can.  We’re just committing all of this to the Lord, and we’ll continue to seek Him in all of this until he shows us what we must do.  Learning about each other, investing in each other emotionally/spiritually, spending time together and having fun, etc. will all be on the agenda from now on.  I’m extremely eager and excited to work at that I find it to be one of the most exciting things I can be doing!

God is so unbelievably good to bring along someone like Denise (that is her name, used with her permission lol.).  I’m so thankful and Blessed.  I can’t wait to see where God brings us in 2010!  We’re just along for the ride!

I’m starting this month on marketing and PR for a new Christian film shooting in a few months as well as ChristianMovies.com and gearing up to finish Standing Firm and release that for summer.  The first 6 months are going to be insanely busy but I’ll be glad when they’re over.  I’ll be knuckling down on the Standing Firm edit this week, committing to spend every bit of time I can on it.  I feel like I’ve been slacking a tad to get it locked up, that can’t happen!  Please pray God gives me direction on when it’s OK to lock.  It’s difficult to be sure, but I look forward to the release of stress once it’s done.

Here is a quick FX shot from Standing Firm for those of you who are interested.  I had to replace the name on the stone and add the wife’s name to the stone as well.  I changed the perspective a tad, matched the grain, created the depth of field, and made it a bit easier to read than the original.  Don’t worry this doesn’t spoil a thing in the film, but I’m very glad the shot turn out well Anybody who doesn’t read this (sorry) wouldn’t know the difference, haha.

So that’s what I’m up to!  Lots of things going on.  I noticed today that I’ve been working for myself for 7 months, which is pretty insane.  I’m pretty proud of myself to have gotten started this early.  I’ll only be 22 this June!  God has been awesome nudging me along and 2010 looks to be a very profitable year, in more ways than one.  We’ll see where he takes me