Which way Big Guy? I'm Game!
The past two days were pretty uneventful again, JUST KIDDING! Nah it was great. Monday morning I woke up to an email from Affirm Films asking for a few things. No “hey we would like to distribute your film” but no “take this trash and go away” either 
So that’s good news, just gotta be patient and give them what they ask for until they assess things properly and make a decision. It’s a business just like any other, no reason to get involved with someone bad for business, so they can mull over it all they want!
I’m waiting on a call from The Chapel still in regards to that ministry position. I’ve given it a lot of thought, talked with a friend or two, and I’m just being patient there as well. It’s Wednesday when I’m writing this and it’s only one week after initial meetings so that isn’t a lot of time passed. Just like Affirm, I want everyone to give things serious thought and consideration before making a move. Just like I don’t want my film to go to someone God doesn’t want, I don’t want to go into ministry if it’s not His Will either.
God is teaching me a lot of things in the past few months. There have been many lessons to be learned, and changes to be made. Although I have done my fair share of horrible things this Summer in mind, spirit, etc. just as everyone else has…He has been merciful and shown me the errors I’ve made. Man I know obediance is a CHOICE and not something you “try,” but it’s hard to do it sometimes. I’ll be honest here and tell you all something that is no secret amongst a few close friends, and if your a guy you can relate. This world is mighty tempting, in more ways than one. The fight is in the mind, and it’s a daily struggle. Magazines in gas stations, ads on Facebook which are VERY revealing and unncessary, the internet overall, just clicking through TV channels can cause some serious issues. It isn’t just a guy thing either, but you know exactly what I’m talking about. I told my buddy that driving through Vegas on the way to Los Angeles was a really difficult time. I got stuck in traffic and there are pornographic billboards every 50ft on the left and right. This world is so difficult, and any man who claims to be 100% free of it’s snairs is a liar. Purity of mind is where I struggle the most, and I would appreciate some prayer in that area of my life. It’s a problem that trickles down into your life, your friends, and if it escallates into truly dangerous territory, it can destroy marriages, relationships with future children, and all things inbetween. I think temptating for me hits hard when it’s time to start making decisions. The enemy doesn’t want me to have clarity in my decision making, so it’s times like now that I really need prayer from anyone who reads this, that I would stay strong.
“Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.” (Romans 12:2)
That being said, the past two days have been pretty fun. I’ve met a load of new people, had a lot of fun, crashed at a friends place (which I haven’t done in years actually), and just enjoyed some great fellowship. That is one benefit of this ministry position is the social health it’ll bring me. I really need some daily fellowship, and with this I’ll get it at work and out of work because I’m closer to folks I want to get to know a lot better. I’m not interested in weekend buddies, I want to grow some seriously deep and meaningful friendships with people I care about. I’m looking forward to seeing if this ministry job is God’s Will or if He wants me to wait, stay in Ransomville, and stay at Niagara Frontier Bible Church.
Another cool development is I sold a few pieces of film equipment for some good prices and just last night spent a chunk of it on some computer pieces I need. I have 8GB of RAM coming in the mail as well as a new GPU (ATI 4870) for my Mac. That combined with the Intensity Card I just bought, will have me all set to do what I need on the film smoothly. The graphics card I have now is doing OK with these dual screens but a new GPU will give me a serious boost, as well as FCP performance, and the RAM will help me a lot with multitasking which has been an interesting task combined with the RAM I have now, and the fact the graphics card is trying to handle what’s open, and the displays at the same time. Until you break down what your throwing at your machine, having 13GB RAM in your computer doesn’t make much sense…
So yea, other than that the Standing Firm edit is coming along well. Just plugging along… I’m excited to see what the rest of this year brings, and the year to come!
