I went to Niagara Frontier Bible Church back home since birth, so I’m pretty used to the way things go over there. Moving to LA back in May was odd because I knew I would be going to a new church, new congregation, new teaching, new everything. I didn’t end up staying there and had moved back home as most of you know, but now I’m in Memphis for The Grace Card and have yet again another church to call home. It was just as weird as my first day at Reality LA (church in Hollywood). I stood around without much to do since I didn’t know anybody. I said hi to a few folks I had met but for the most part it was awkward. An usher came up to me and we chatted for a while which was nice.
There were a lot of folks looking at me I think, lol. No matter, I eventually went to go sit with Joyce (Bradshaw) where she normally sits, the front row…ugh. Of course I was on the end so your just wide open on the right for people to see you. I’m still dealing with a lot of paranoia stuff from childhood and it sucks sometimes because I can’t always enjoy myself. The worship was fun and the message was solid. I think I’ll like going here until the filming is over. Afterwards I saw David walking around and talked with him for a moment. There was a college aged group they have that meets on Sundays so I headed home to just hang out until then. I was one of the first folks there when I arrived and just played ping pong by myself until folks showed up, lol. In case your wondering how that’s possible you push the table against a wall 
Rob Erickson showed up and we played each other until things started. He’ll be playing Blake in The Grace Card so it’s nice to start building a friendship there as we’ll be working together a lot in the coming months. The time with the group was nice as well, just light conversation and laughs as we spoke about the message from the morning. Afterwards folks were going to play Ultimate Frisbee outside and I didn’t have shoes or anything so I ran to go get them back home. We didn’t play long but that didn’t mean I wasn’t sweaty. Running back and forth down a field for 20 minutes will get me going, lol. Folks were heading to Rob’s house because I guess they all had some trip to go on tomorrow. Little did I know what everyone was in for. There was a concrete fireplace that they were going to use all the guys to get off the trailer and setup in the backyard. Before all that though we were all in Robs kitchen and most folks weren’t there yet so we were just talking. They asked me questions about what I was doing in Memphis, where I might be going, how I got started in stuff, I showed them pieces of Standing Firm (which they really liked), and talked about the last 2 years or so of my life. Robs mom was a little upset hearing about the deaths that happened so recently but she was ok
When everyone showed up they started working on this fireplace. These concrete slabs were hundreds of pounds, with the large enclosure piece of it easily 1000+. It was hilarious as we slowly figured out how to move this thing and get it where it needed to be. This was a memory building experience for sure, something I’ll remember for a while, ha ha.
I headed out soon after (it took well over an hour to get that thing put together…and it was only two pieces) and took a shower. I had powder and crap all over me from the concrete. I think it’s safe to say I made a lot of friends tonight, which is a good sign.
I wonder where God will want me at the end of the year. I want to find somewhere I can settle and call home. Somewhere I can get work and if need be travel from project to project but I still want a home somewhere. My parents sounded pretty sure that in the next few years or so they’ll probably end up down in GA to live. They’ll keep the house in NY but my mom will probably head down to Georgia for good sometime in the future. Nashville wouldn’t be such a crappy place to stay I think. Odds are most of the work I get will be internet based, or project to project, but it’ll be nice to have a place to come home to that I can call my own.
I was trying to figure out with Kevin (co-owner Praise Pictures Inc., and Co writer/producer of Standing Firm) what we might do for the business. I have other revenue streams I want to start throwing into a company name but Praise Pictures is in NY and all sorta of other annoying things. I’ll have to figure all this out soon so I can get start being smarter about where my money goes and why. It’s tough because I don’t want to leave NY, I love the people there. There just aren’t any jobs up there…not for someone like me. Even if I travel for some jobs, I’ll be so much farther away up there. I have a better shot at getting jobs more local in Nashville than I do back home. Thousands of people leave the Buffalo area per year, and that makes a lot of sense. I’ll miss everyone a lot 
I don’t know, just trying to figure out where God wants me to go more permanently. I don’t want to be packing my car every few months for very much longer, it’s a really crappy way to live. Your never somewhere long enough to invest in people very much. I’ll certainly never get to date anybody if I plan on leaving a month after I arrive somewhere, right? We’ll see what happens in the next few months, I’ll get an answer sometime.
