Life of Kyle Prohaska

*sniff* *sneeze* Yep, I’m sick.  I’m sick like this about once a year so I guess now is my time.  Blowing my nose all day, the really corny sounding voice, blah blah.  Today was a typical Sunday, more people seem to know about my move now and have given me all sorts of comments about it.  Everyone seems really excited but a bit surprised that I’m leaving.  I think that’s because they don’t understand why I have to, but I don’t blame them for not knowing that.  There aren’t any jobs for me here, none that will let me build a family the way I hope to.  People keep asking me who will fill my position at the church despite the churches current efforts to find volunteers.  I just shrug and say “I don’t know” because I honestly don’t have a clue.  It’s up to the church and its people to fill the position.  Having your sermons available on DVD is a luxury not a right, and standing around wondering how the ministry will continue is exactly why things die off in churches.  If everyone cares enough, somebody will step up.  If not, well you know the rest.  I’ve made it an unhealthy habit of mine to care about other peoples responsibilities far too much in the past, normally ending in an unhealthy result for myself even if I help the situation.  I’ve sorta backed off of that a little bit lately realizing there is a line.  I refuse to make it my responsibility to find someone who can do my job.  Not out of some sort of prideful arrogance, but simply because as a ministry staff member, at my time of resignation, it is the churches job to find a replacement.  Hopefully someone steps up, because the church is doing whatever they can to figure things out.  We’ll see what happens…

I went to lunch with my mom today after church.  It was nice as we don’t do it as often as we probably could.  Most of our conversation lately revolves around the move, how excited she is, and how hard it’ll be for her and dad.  It makes sense, I’ve been around many more years after high school than the average person.  They’re just being parents, it’s no surprise.  When I’m asked “how’d your mom handling it?”  I response, “She’s being a mom…what else?”  We had a good time, and the food was good.  I had a big salad with some cornbread and mexican food.  I think being sick has allowed me to eat more lol.

After that I went home to try and finish prep for tomorrows big shoot.  It will be a trying day, especially if I don’t feel better.  I should be Eric and Robbies last day working together on the film.  I hope we finish what we need although I think it’s pretty safe to say I’ll be back to the house at least one more time to shoot with Rob since last Fridays shoot didn’t go so well.  I just want to finish Eric ASAP since he has to drive 2 hours every time we shoot.  I hate having him come from that far over and over again then not finish then say “well looks like we need another day.”  It’s getting to the point where we need to just get the crap done…period.  No wining about “we need to finish this because I’m getting busy blah blah blah.”  Sacrifice is required, and everyone has sacrificed much.  All the previous sacrifice means NOTHING if we all get an attitude now.  I’ll be doing a post sometime soon about what my heart is on success and determination…I got a hefty post coming.  God has given me a heart and passion for the way I do business and the way I conduct my life and I’ll be sure to spill that and hopefully inspire a few of you.  Excuses are for wusses, get your crap done and get it done with integrity and heart…no matter what.

I’ve been showing the first 10 minutes of Standing Firm to some friends and getting some great feedback.  I’m glad to finally have the film moving along where people can actually start seeing it without holes.  There is so much work to be done yet, with the whole film lacking sound mix, score, etc.  However, it is neat to get enthusiastic comments from people, it gives me a boost of confidence.

Tomorrow is a big day, pray that it goes well!