Life of Kyle

Lookie what I found while visiting my Profile on Facebook…LOL.

A friend of mine is in a little contest for his short film…

http://www.joshharris.com/2010/01/film_1_bobby_shook.php#comments-content

Watch the film and vote by leaving a comment at the bottom.  Thanks!

Don’t mind the name of the artist, lol…just listen.

A new note has been posted to Facebook on the Standing Firm fan page. We need all of you to do your part to get this film to the masses!

http://www.facebook.com/notes/standing-firm/spreading-the-word-on-facebook/300367240344

Today was another busy day, no surprise.  I find it most difficult to keep myself together when I’m busy, it’s a weakness of mine.  If I’m working on something that’s my own busy is fine, but if it’s for a million different people and they’re all emailing, calling, messaging, etc. it gets insane.  Everybody wants their hot fries, and unfortunately it’s common for them to all ask for it at the same time.  Yippie…

I got a bunch of little things done today, including depositing that investment check into the Praise Pictures bank account, so that’s a load off.  I’m still trying to get ahold of my tax guy to get something done so we’re all set for 2010, but that proved a failure today, I’ll try again tomorrow.  I finally got access again to our online banking too, something I was having trouble with.  Speaking of which I need to also get a new rim for my left front tire, which I dented when I bumped a curb a month or so ago, ugh.  Lots of little chores to do, and they always take the longest for me.

I think I’m going to start blogging about the new booklet I’m doing alongside my E-group at Vintage.  That’s basically small groups at Vintage, and Vintage is a local college ministry I’ve been apart of for a year or two.  I was supposed to start yesterday but never did.  I see how my work can get in the way of Jesus sometimes, and that’s gotta stop.  When the business increases, study time decreases but it’s in the times of business that I need his truth the most…funny how that works out huh?

The process we’re doing is called The 4-D Revolution: The Four Decisions.  They’re basically this, and we’ll be concentrating on them for the next number of weeks.  Love God First, Love Others, Love the Lost, Love the Least (not what it sounds like, it’s referring to those who need help and doing service projects for people).  I’m going to go through the first few verses that they include to go through and do this everyday as apart of my blog (recording my thoughts).  Here it goes…

Psalm 1: I like this chapter, it’s basically an expression of what a Christian should do and what God does for him.  It’s the “on it he meditates day and night” that strikes me hard as that has been my weakness in the past, something I’m trying to change.  While I might use truth in my decision making, trying to keep God at the forefront of my logic as best as I can, I need to get better at being able to specifically grab portions of scripture for myself while in that moment…something I haven’t been good at.  This chapter is also tells us what stands the test of time.  Those under God will last forever, while the wicked will not.  This gives comfort that no matter how tough the circumstance or situation, God still stands on top, and those under him are protected.  The truth will always stand the test of time and tribulation, even if we can’t see the results here and now.

Psalm 119:1-10: Again like Psalm 1 we see a passage that is an expression of what a righteous man does.  They walk in His ways not their own, they obey His laws, they praise Him, etc.  This also seems like a prayer as many verses have a “let me not” element to them.  These are good verses to memorize to use in prayer…

Psalm 119:11-24: This continues as a prayer where the previous left off…and you can see the writer talking of things like “delight” and “rejoicing” in His Word and ways.  It should be joyful to serve God, to serve the purpose he has for us.  It’s a form of worship, an outward expression of our love for Him.  That’s what we were created for, to Glorify him.  It’s all about His Glory, nothing else.  Many tend to think Jesus’ death was all about us and saving us when really it was only a piece of the pie, one could argue a small one.  God was restoring his Glory through Jesus’ death and redeeming man in the process.  What a beautiful thing

Those are the first three I’ll do for now, good stuff in there.  Hopefully these little snippets of what I think aren’t useless to some lol, I just write what I see…

Denise came over later today, we sorta sat around figuring out what to do.  We ended up going to Lewiston to eat, at the Brickyard…my favorite place She’d never been to Lewiston before, so I was happy to show her.  I like that little town, I hope to shoot there sometime.  It’s got a great look to it, very “small-town” feeling.  We ate and chatted then ran to Tops on the way home to grab every kind of junkfood possible.  I grabbed two 6-packs of Orange tic tacs and some other things (yes I love them…can’t you tell?  I’m like Pauly Bleeker in JUNO…minus the yellow shorts and fornication lol).  We watched Star Trek, her favorite movie from last year.  That movie is stunning on Blu-ray, always gets me.  It’s always fun hanging out and chatting and watching movies, good times!

I think it’s time for bed folks, wish me luck tomorrow, lots to do!  Also, please keep my composer in prayer as he tends to some family issues, and also my friend Ben who’s health seems to be declining quickly (Cystic Fibrosis).  This could be a big problem as he’s gotten back into school, health problems could ruin things all over again.  Thanks, Blessings!

So yea, it’s February now…wow.  Lots going on here.  The past week has been insanity, a lot busier than I’ve been in a long time.  That’s what happens when you take up a ton of work and it all has similar deadlines!  Yikes!  Ah well, I’ll get it all squared away, it’s just been nutty.  Today from the moment I got up I’ve pretty much had my fingers typing and my mouse clicking.  I stopped to eat a sandwich that’s about it.  I’m doing the DVD Menu’s for The Secrets of Jonathan Sperry as well as the Animated Titles for the Behind the Scenes.  I’ve also just finished a website for my neighbor in the last day or so.  On top of that I’m attempting still to call my edit on Standing Firm 100% locked.  I’m probably 99.5% right now.

Just as a side note in case your wondering “why the heck hasn’t he locked that yet…wasn’t it supposed to be Feb 1st?”  The answer is yes it was, but because of some rather serious news from my composer, I got a bit of an extension.  I’m not waiting to lock it though, I probably would’ve run over a tad anyways.  Please pray for my composer, he needs prayer for him and his family.  I can’t say why, I don’t have his permission, but it’s appreciated regardless.

I’ve also updated my graphics portfolio recently, and my IMDB profile which is getting a bit bigger now ChristianMovies.com has also been an ongoing job…sales were good in January, lets hope for another great month this month!  Keep your eye on the site for some awesome sales and deals coming your way soon… As you can see via the post under this one we released a new behind the scenes video for Standing Firm today.  Watch it here.

So yea it’s been pretty crazy around here lately, my computer is going to explode and so is my brain.  This begs the question, what’s the rest of 2010 look like for me?  Well…

1) Standing Firm - Locking the edit, Color-Correction, Marketing Plan, Securing Distribution, Promotional Materials, Premiere, Release the film on DVD and watch God do awesome things, Enter into SAICFF, Go to SAICFF if I get in (or not), etc.

2) ChristianMovies.com - Continue to manage the site as best I can, enter new products, help develop some deals/newsletters and send those, market the site online, boost sales in anyway I can.

3) Heumoore Productions - I’m working on their next project and marketing it all year.  I’ve already begun you just don’t know it yet I can’t tell you the name or the site or anything, but you’ll know in due time.  I’ll also be working on-set for the film the end of Spring.  The money from that will all go into Standing Firm so I can finish/distribute it along with the investment we received.  This was a huge Blessing, God really saved my year (and my film) with this.

4) KeepGoing.biz - Keeping up to date any web related changes they have.

5) ProverbsCinema.com - Updating this site as needed for Coram Deo Studios (the No Greater Love team).

6) Any Extra Work - Any extra web/graphics/film/etc. jobs that come along that I have time to do and are at a good price…I’ll be picking up as well.

So yea, as you can see 2010 is pretty much booked up with work, Praise God!  Now I just need to keep my head together, pray for me! :/

Denise is doing very good, in case anybody out there was wondering She’s amazing, and I’m not just saying that.  There’s a bond there that’s unique and rooted in Christ, something I’m so happy to have.  We have a mutual respect for each other, ridiculously good communication, we can tell each other anything no matter how taboo it may feel or be, and I just love her so much!  This year is going to fly by…I can tell.  If your reading this beautiful, I LOVE YOU

A new video is available for Standing Firm…

Source: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bKh-GP7YhOo

http://www.praisepictures.com/blog/news/standing-firm-new-video-shaun-smith/

Where are all of the flying cars? Where were you on Y2K? This episode takes a fun look at what we were supposed to have by this point in history. We’re taking a quick break from the more serious topics to look back (and forward) through time. We want to hear from you! Where were you when the world was supposed to end? What are your predictions for the future?

Special guest host Bethany Williams joins us for this romp through time! The Glowing Nose Podcast is like “This American Life” meets the Bible — help support this show by purchasing films like Bringing up Bobby and Between the Walls.

http://glowingnose.com/site/?p=722

What a blessed life Jesus has given to me!  I think it’s only natural after being broken to realize what I have and appreciate it all the more.  Things are going well right now and I can see the light at the end of the tunnel on Standing Firm.  The time to go is still the same but my comfort with it is more than before.  I watched it twice today, all the way through without any breaks and I’m very thankful with what God has given to me.  Regardless of it’s faults I’m confident this is a film that can impact whoever watches it.  The story isn’t super complicated, but it’s layered.  Not in narrative but in reliability, and for that I’m really excited.  I know that it’s almost impossible to not relate to this film in some way or another.  You have literally have over 6 relationships in the film, all of which have their own lessons tied into them.  They are relationships that everyone has, and it’s impossible for someone to be without all of them.  That excites me! I want to see live’s changed, Christians edified, and God Glorified!  Woo!

I got a wonderful email from a man in South Africa today.  I’m telling you it’s amazing to know that people out there even outside my own little nothing of a town know about me.  It’s not some fame game where I’m looking for that or craving it, it’s just cool to see.  You know what, besides my own therapy in writing this blog or making my film or whatever, knowing that it benefits others is amazing.  I mean really?  Really God?  You want to use me?  Why?  I guess it doesn’t matter, I’m just thankful he does.  I think I’m going to start writing a lot more about things I’ve learned so other might learn from them as well.  Why not?  It’s worth a shot right He even encouraged me by telling me that there are others out there in South Africa who know about the film, how cool is that?

I’m just in a fuzzy and happy mood right now, it’s great.  Denise just left and we’d been talking for a while.  I gotta say everyone, being able to look into the face of somebody you know deep down in your heart is your future creates so much excitement and joy I can’t barely contain it.  God is good, that’s all I’ve got to say, and I’m so blessed to have someone like her in my life.

Be thankful always…the good, bad, and the ugly, because God deserves it.  If we can get ourselves to the place where we’re thankful for the little things and not skipping over them like no big deal, then what kind of joy and thankfulness could be possible in the big things?  Give it some thought…g’night!

I’m so angry at myself right now.  From the moment I heard Mark Driscoll was going to Haiti I knew what I was in for when he got back home.  I knew he was probably going to be devastated, seeing all sorts of horrible and unspeakable things.  I knew as well that whatever sermon he did next, it was going to rock my world and whoever watched it.  Even knowing that, I was completely blind to how much I really needed it.  Seeing this footage and hearing Driscoll speak, it’s not difficult to cry.  I’ve felt this kind of anger before.  Seeing how spoiled we are, how spoiled I am.  We have daytime TV and reality shows where people complain their food is too cold, their designer shoes didn’t come in the mail on time, their appointment at the spa was rescheduled.

It’s always bothered me, the selfishness…

Gosh even trying to write this I’m having a hard time keeping it together.  I feel so horrible about myself.  I am such a hypocrite.  At the end of the sermon Driscoll gave he talked about giving of course.  Giving at Mars Hill was down a tremendous amount and he was explaining the percentage of people there that don’t give at all.  Giving is somewhere I lack.  Screw it, I’ll just be honest, I’m that percent.  I’ve been justifying my lack of giving because of my move over the summer, my recent financial situation, etc. and here I am working at home, making all sorts of money again, and giving a single dime is barely on my mind.  On my way home from Applebees after enjoying time with friends in a happy environment, eating hot food, I stopped at Wegmans to buy some munchies.  Garbage food for no other reason but taste and enjoyment.  Now I see it sitting in the bag I bought it in and it looks disgusting to me.  What a waste of money.

I’ve never been someone who liked the waste money, it actually drives me crazy…but what someones idea of ‘waste” is can change.  I need to stop being selfish.  I need to give Jesus the first fruits and not the last.  I’ve been a hypocrite, watching people on television, being angry at their selfishness while I in some respects was actually comparable to them.  Shame on me, shame on us.  I’m not writing this to present myself as some example for recognition of my “change.”  Please don’t read it that way.  I’m really wrecked about this and again I’m not saying that to look for pity or a hand on my shoulder.  My heart is that if your reading this, and your like me, that you repent…like I have to.  I’ve poured so much money into Standing Firm, and because of that neglected the giving to my own church, while I had the ability to do both and for that I’m so incredibly broken and sorry.  This ends today…

Even before all of this talking to Denise today I just told her that I’m so incredibly lucky to work at home.  I sit in the comfort of my bedroom in PJ’s with my cold cereal and a blanket and I make money.  That’s my life…that’s what I do.  What a ridiculous blessing of a life that is.  To realize that regardless of my DISGUSTING disobedience that God has continued to Bless me, even bring me out of the financial hole I was in at the end of 2009 (which was NOT a hole, just a slight slump) and give me the GREATEST month financially that I’ve ever had…I’m just beside myself with sickness in my heart.  What is wrong with me?  I’m so spoiled.  I seriously want to vomit it wrecks me so bad.  I want my life to be about Jesus, for Jesus, but somehow I’ve lost sight of this very large portion of my worship to Him.  I’m so thankful to have this truth pressed on me.  Please take what I’ve said to heart and examine yourself.  I hope this post shook some of you out of the funk you may be in.

Jesus has so much yet to do in my heart.  I hope that someday I can become the kind of man he wants me to be for Him.  Realizing holes in my heart like this and my negligence and my inability to see this kind of problem in myself far sooner than now makes me doubt so much about myself I can’t even explain it.  Just pray for me please as I have some serious searching to do.

Here is a segment from the Mars Hill video…Right Click ‘ Save Target As ‘